wish i wasn’t pressed on time. the lack thereof to think and process and reflect, thats important.
i wrote everything down today. or enough of what was going on in my mind, no twitter/facebook updates, just paper &pen. i found myself in that strange clarity of thought again. strange, i wanted to hold onto it forever.
i had a bullshit night and then i was having a bullshit morning. things cant always go as planned. i wish i had to followed through with my plans. the time taken away from soex would never be given back, but i did what i needed to do. i need to stand on my ground sometimes. supervisor had me by the leash, asked me to go get my fingerprint done again. good thing i got it done and split when my card declined. i never went back to pay for it.
got in time for soex.
anyways this is boring. i left out all the interesting parts. i can’t think. i don’t want to think. just that pause before, on my journey to where ever i was going, where ever life was taking me at the moment. i was uncertain.
