its mid semester and i havent done shit with my life. at least ive somewhat gotten rid of the unnecessary bullshit in my life.. im sitting here at filter w d.vo working on resumes and cover letters, for a select few places that i want to send in. i dont want to get my hopes up, but im hoping they’ll see what ive got. im not scared, but lazy tues and thurs are slowly grabbing my attention, whispering to me to do something with my life. i just, need, to do something with my life. please, please, please… and maybe im saying that im not scared, but i actually am scared to get turned down for things im so passionate about.
i wasnt even thinking about all this until i came here. bad place. need to go back. not getting my hopes up but hoping that they’ll see. thats all.
my life has been changing. college life tearing away, i dont want a college life. i just want to live but i am utterly afraid of loneliness and leaving the things that “define” me
